CHILDLIKE FAITH

Have you ever felt discouraged by the fact that some of your prayers are yet unanswered? Do not be discouraged, time is training you and teaching you to wait upon the Lord. I have to constantly remind myself of these very words during those moments when I realize my strong desire to have another baby. You see, my husband and I have been trying to conceive a second child for over five years now with no success. We already have a beautiful six year old daughter that we had no trouble conceiving, so we decided it was time for us to finally see a fertility specialist a few months ago for answers and some help. According to the doctor, all of the lab work looked good for the both of us and he told us that I have what is called unexplained infertility. I was prescribed several medications to regulate certain things in my body to help us along with our first step towards conception. I immediately did not feel comfortable with taking all of these prescription pills that included a long list of side effects. Long story short, something did not feel right within me to take any medication to help me conceive. After praying about it because I felt so uneasy about taking the pills, I grew this surge of hope and faith and threw them in the garbage. I began to read scripture on faith to encourage me once again, because to be honest, I had been walking down a path of hopelessness and discouragement on and off for years regarding this situation. I was immediately reminded that “we walk by faith, and not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7). My favorite scripture says “to trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean not on your understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths” (Proverb 3:5-6).

The whole point of me sharing our journey to having another baby is this: sometimes God doesn’t answer our prayer(s) right away so that we can surrender our will to his will for our lives. He wants our wants and desires to align themselves with his wants, his plans, his desires, his ways, and his perfect timing. “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord (Isaiah 55:8). This has truly been the hardest thing I have ever had to endure for all of these years along with my husband and those closest to me. They have seen me broken in my spirit about this, and it wasn’t until recently (three months ago to be exact) that my sadness, disappointment, and heavy burden about my trouble conceiving has turned to complete faith, hope, and expectation. God gives eternal encouragement and hope (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17). Although there were times in the past that I have felt like my prayers had fallen on deaf ears, I know that this was a lie and a distraction from the enemy to keep me further away from God’s truth. We cannot rely on our emotions since they waver and change like the raging waves of the sea. We have to soley rely on God’s word and what it says. I know that God is my encourager: Psalm 10:17 says, “you hear the desire of the afflicted, you encourage them and you listen to their cry.” We have to remind ourselves that “nothing is impossible or too hard for God” (Jeremiah 32:17).

I don’t know what it is that your believing God for right now, (maybe it’s restoration of your broken marriage, healing for you or a loved ones body, or if your single your wanting to meet “the one”), but I do know that “without faith, it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those that earnestly seek him” (Hebrews 11:6). Don’t give up, lose hope, or dispose of your faith just yet! Sometimes it may feel like God has forgotten about you or that he has not heard your hearts cries, desires, or prayers but this is so far from the truth. God just might have you right where he needs you to be, in a very uncomfortable position, so that you can stop doubting and finally come to a place of complete peace with your circumstance and surrender it ALL to him. My prayer for you is this: “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit,” (Romans 15:13). As you walk in expectation for an unanswered prayer, “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer” (Romans 12:12). This is the confidence we have in approaching God: “that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us” (1 John 5:14). This is such an exciting time in my life right now as I have fully surrendered my hearts desires and placed them in the loving hands of Jesus in complete trust. Trust and faith go hand in hand. God wants us to come before him as his children and trust him with a pure and faith filled heart. Childlike faith, along with childlike love, are an open road to God’s heart. Come to the Father with childlike faith and watch the miracles he will perform on your behalf.

With love, hope, and childlike faith,

Sonia

  • Gavy July 9, 2016 at 2:07 am

    Refreshing and good read towards growth! Keep faith in your journey!

    • Sonia Carrillo July 9, 2016 at 8:57 pm

      Thanks so much Gavy! Glad you enjoyed!

  • Norma Carlon July 17, 2016 at 3:51 am

    Sonia WOW such a powerful and beautiful blog my favorite “child like faith”! Your testimony touched my heart thank you for being transparent and for sharing the importance of being joyful in the presence of God, while wait in expectation!!! Bless you my sister!! – Norma

  • Betsy August 11, 2016 at 2:54 pm

    Beautiful Sonia well said ,child like faith is what God is looking for